Life is beautiful... supposedly.. supposedly how you make of whatever you have...
I almost broke up with him last night... my heart was on the verge of breaking into a million pieces... again...
I can only blame myself I guess, because almost everything is because of me...
but what can I do?...
... sigh...
I just feel like giving up everything sometimes... my whole heart is so numb I don't think I'd flinch if somebody stabbed it with a blunt knife...
Everybody just expects so much of me... my parents, my colleagues, my boss, my friends... I always thought that the term "put in your best for everything" was meant to make your life easier...
but it has never been the case..
Put your best in everything and you only get more shit thrown back at you...
People expect you to do more, for less..
People expect you to be available for everything
People expect you to take up even more grueling assignments
People expect you to take responsibility...
seriously, what do you get back in return? nothing much. Nothing even worth mentioning...
Its late, but I'm starting to learn that if you say "yes" to everything, you'd end up living a life worse then hell... coz everybody will just throw to you what they don't want to do.
it has never been worth it, and will never be worth it...
but it's just so hard to say no...
and each time you say no, your relationship with that person becomes greatly strained.. because all along, you've be playing his game, and when suddenly you throw him a no, he becomes disoriented and angry...
I really don't know..
I'm sick of responsibility.
I'm sick of people assuming that I'm free.
I'm sick of not having ANY time for myself.
I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick..
I'm sick of everything.........
*cries*
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